What a long time it has been! I have been, quite frankly, overwhelmed and freaked out and forgetful and overwhelmed and sad and did I mention overwhelmed? I drove seven and a half hours to Anaheim by myself to attend WonderCon, I'm coming up on the end of the school year, which means I'm desperately trying to find a summer job so I can move out, I'm moving out, and I'm trying to maintain an online presence through it all. Whew! I am now taking a deep breath. In, out. Ok.
I think that going to that convention has had an enormous impact on my life and my perspective. I did make a video of it, which you can watch here, and in it, I see myself smiling so widely and genuinely, I can hardly believe it. It was a wonderful shock to find myself in a place full of so many people that are just as passionate as I am about...everything.
It made me think a lot about the rut that I've been in the last few years during my recovery from my mental breakdown, and what the next steps forward are. I think that I need to end up in L.A., which is not something that I ever would have predicted. I love my hometown, my friends and family, and I need to step away. The things I want to do-writing, acting, directing-
aren't things that I can really turn into a career up here. I mean, the Internet is a hugely helpful resource, but it can't get me face to face with people who can help me achieve my little dreams.
So, thus far, I think I might have a hint of a plan. Fingers crossed.