Well, I think I might have begun moving forward. After the success of the summer camp, I focused most of my time on preparing for my first LARP in Southern Illinois, and sort of refused to examine what on earth I was going to do after that (for more about the event, check out their website: www.chroniclesoftherealm.com). As I've come down from the adrenaline rush of that game, I've landed square on my behind, lost, jobless, and with very little hope of paying bills.
A couple of job applications later, I remembered that I was supposed to be continuing my work with kids. Hadn't I already thought about that? Wasn't I just taking a break to do the game and then getting back into it? What happened to that goal? Turns out, depression is a jerk and does not help you on your road to recovery/success/a career. Who knew?
So, I have set up a business plan including Dungeons and Dragons and LARP games for kids (explore the website for more info if you so choose), and am currently waiting for people to meet me here.
It's a big leap of faith for me. I've never been good at those, and I have days where life feels impossible and I shouldn't bother getting out of bed. But the good news is, there are starting to be good days. I'm getting better. And I'm going to try and continue this work that brings me so much joy, and seems to be doing the same for others.
Here's to fantasy, that keeps bringing people together in weird and delightful ways, and here's hoping that I can keep following this dream.
(photo by Steven Townshend at Chronicles of the Realm Chapter 3: Kalibaba)